Same home but new routines are developing. Having Tim home for most of the last month has been revealing. We have always been very easy spending time together, weeks or months have never bothered us when in close contact. Now, it is offering so much support and time with and for each other, but also establishing new roles and responsibilities. Sharing and shifting and letting the changes happen, embracing them actually. There is a looseness and laxity to the days now that I have not felt since those days we spent traveling around Australia, not aimless but not driven. Compounded by the crazy antics of twin toddlers, of course, but it is a good compounding.
I think so much of the color of our lives depends on our perspective. Looking at this time as an opportunity makes it seem special and cherishing the time is coming easily.
I was talking to my sister this weekend, we were discussing all the changes. She
finds herself in much the same place as Tim, work hours cut until new contracts and projects solidify. We spoke of how much of our worth seems tied to our jobs, our work efforts until we step back and evaluate what is really worthwhile. And time, it then seems like a precious gift.
I remember how I felt at first when my only 'job' was the boys. Now, as I walk back into working, I see that it is all equally valid, but parenting to me is a privilege rather than a job.
I went to my workplace today to speak with my supervisor. I have been employed with them for a few years now but I work so sporadically, with very little consistent patient load. I explained my situation frankly and the reception I received there was awesome. Immediately I was given patient after patient with the reassurance of more to come. Then I opened a piece of mail from another company I once worked with, it was an invitation to dinner and to come back. This company was one I was really excited to join but due to the pregnancy and bed rest, I never really got a chance to be a true employee. But here they are, asking me to dinner.
So, I am taking this gift and running with it. I feel as if the New Year is actually being marked by the birthday of the boys and I am seeing that this is going to be a great year. A year that is going to EXPLODE with opportunity and so...
I plan on tackling the year and taking it down...
But nurturing the year and helping it grow.
Now, to quote a blog author I have fallen in love with, GO!