Today is a new day and I did not want to leave that post hanging there. It felt good to write it out and those feelings are still all there on this day but somehow they all feel lighter. Your comments and words of support made it all feel lighter, eased some of the heaviness I was feeling. So, I want to say thank you for that, my friends.
It also helped that after work I collapsed on the bed with the boys and read them five library books then proceeded to fall asleep with one on my face and nap for a half of an hour during which time I profusely drooled on myself. And we had Taco Bell for dinner because it was Taco Tuesday.
Today, as I write this I am sitting next to my car, locked my keys in there, wouldn't you know? Tim just pulled up to unlock it and I might as well think of it as an opportunity to give him a mid-day kiss and realize that my fried laptop and messed up schedule don't have to define my day. Much, anyway.
Like I said, the feelings are not gone but manageable. Thanks again, folks.